Here’s your update and play-by-play… As ever, it’s a bit wordy :p

Got through to him eventually. He kept hanging up the second I tried to have a real conversation and then refusing to answer the phone for a couple of minutes before the whole thing started again. This went on for half an hour.

In the end, I texted him one last time saying: “I give up. I can’t do this any more.” He called me back asking what I meant, I was crying and explained how I felt like I was the only one fighting for us and I couldn’t do it any more. He got mad at me and demanded to know what he’d allegedly done wrong. I explained to him about the whole not letting me know where he was or if he was ok - he got defensive - I conceded a point and said I shouldn’t have got so upset, fair enough. I said it wasn’t so much that that sucked, but the way he acted after: when he kept hanging up the phone and cancelling calls and generally being childish. He got mad again. I tried to explain about my trust and anxiety issues (of which he’s already aware), he answered in a very bored voice. Then, out of the blue, the following one-sided conversation poured from him:

• Apparently I’m always picking arguments
• I’d snapped at him a few times at the beginning of our relationship (about April/May time) which is why he does what he does now (I’m not downplaying this, it was literally just the hormonal and exam time snapping that he used as his excuse)
• Then he was explaining how women aren’t always right and that everyone’s equal (as though he needed to convince me of this fact o.0)
• Then he was crying about the bad thing, so I ended up comforting him a lot
• Then he went on talking about how he’s a really caring and compassionate person and he might go and find out how to volunteer at a charity for disabled people and how he’s also totally been asked to give a talk at his old school about his business (which he never mentioned before because he only found out today). Sorry if that reads like a stream of consciousness but that was pretty much how it went down… only dragged out for 30 minutes (I even got to hear some of the speech).
• Then there was more about him being lovely (by him).
• Then he went to bed.

So… that was interesting.

Now I don’t know if the above was just drunk talk (he swore blind he’s only had one drink, but he was slurring like crazy) or whether he saw a big serious talk was coming and he needed to deflect it (which talking about The Bad Thing did, it’s hard to dump someone if they’re crying over something that could ruin their lives), but we’re still together. Currently.

I need to think on this, but really, after such a performance, I need to dump him. It’s like the universe needed to give me one last push to take the plunge. I’d do it now if it weren’t for the fact I’d feel guilty for waking him up to tell him (especially as he’s very drunk so might not even remember tomorrow :S)   :/

Ugh. Tomorrow is going to Suck (with a capital S).

:(